Alma 29:4

4 I ought not to harrow up in my desires the firm decree of a just God, for I know that he granteth unto men according to their desire, whether it be unto death or unto life; yea, I know that he allotteth unto men, yea, decreeth unto them decrees which are unalterable, according to their wills, whether they be unto salvation or unto destruction.

Why does he say "desire" 3 times in these verses? I'll go see what desire means.

"An order by an authority."

So God's unalterable desire is that we are free to choose for ourselves. That's really huge when I wrap my brain around it.

God has left my eternity up to me.

There's a lot riding on my choices. Everything, actually.